My Banded Time

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Feeling Unworthy at my Band anniversary and Still FAT!

My band anniversary came and went 9/15.  I was deluged with work 10 hour work days, busy afternoon/evening/weekends filled with kid activities.  I have lost weight and I am smaller than last year and I am healthier, but: I'M STILL FAT and not at my ideal BMI.  There are no cute pics with size 6 pants on.  The Gastric Bypass and Gastric Sleeve patients in our practice that had surgery the same time I did are a lot smaller.  Many are smaller than me.  I do have thyroid issues and am officially going through menopause.  My surgery office said they are surprised I was able to lose weight.  But still...I was feeling low and defeated during my anniversary.  But I'm back and I've amped up my exercise which kind of stopped during my heavy work schedule during the summer.  I'm eating more cleanly...the 2nd year will be the year that I reach GOAL...So that explains my little break from blogging...just felt down and unworthy!  I'm glad to be back and to read about your successes and your thoughts...

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PS thank you for your sweet notes!  A disclaimer...the band does work...I was just hoping to be done and finished and thin forever.  But I realize that even when I do reach my ideal BMI, maintenance will be a life long journey.  I just wanted to be done and in maintenance right now. 

15 comments:

  1. When things aren't going well - you should blog the most because everyone here has been there and they can offer insight so you know you aren't alone...because you're not. You'll get there and you are worth it. This is YOUR journey...

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  2. Hang in there!! Just imagine what your weight would be today if you hadn't gotten the band a year ago. For me, it would have kept on climbing. This isn't a race -- you can take all the time you need to get to your goal, and you can feel good about taking this serious step for yourself and for all the progress you have made.

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  3. Never feel down on yourself, ok? You have done great and you ARE worth it and I''m proud of you! Try not to compare yourself to others, it will only drive your crazy. Just know you are healthier than you were a year ago and you will be healthier this time next year! :)

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  4. Progress is progress no matter how slow. Don't give up!

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  5. It's REALLY hard not to compare. But your challenges are different than other people's and no one can take away the success you've had this year, so don't take it away from yourself. You WILL get there, I have every confidence.

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  6. Don't feel disappointed. The band is a slow and steady process. Although some banders lose their weight quickly others take plenty of time to lose the weight. I did not reach goal for three years.

    The cool thing about the band is no matter how long it has been since surgery you can kick start things with the band (you can adjust the band at any time). RNY folks tend to lose faster but that adjustability factor forever is only something with a lap band gets.

    Keep at it!

    Tina

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  7. Good for you for being motivated to do more and keep your head up and not drown yourself in a batch of cookies!

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  8. No need to feel unworthy ever! Your body is going through alot right now, I agree with the bariatric office - I'm proud that you were actually able to lose any weight. This will be YOUR year. :)

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  9. Sometimes maintaining a stable weight is an achievement alone, I know if I didn't have my band I would have just kept ballooning out. Here's to the next 12 months :)

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  10. We are all so very different.. The important thing is that YOU are feeling healthy, YOU are doing things you wouldn't have even thought of doing pre-band, YOU are becoming the confident, inspiring, strong woman that you've become throughout this journey... To me, numbers don't matter, I matter. YOU matter, my Lovely Friend - and YOU are what is important!!

    Happy Bandiversary!!

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  11. Rachael...you are beautiful and deserving. Your journey is not over. Don't get down on yourself. You will reach goal...take it one day at a time. I'm proud of how far you have come.

    Keep it up. By the way...blog when you are down. These women always bring me back to reality and lift my spirits. I'm glad your back.

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  12. Do not feel bad, Rachel! We all have moments where we feel this exact same thing! But let me also say that slow weight loss has also proved to be the kind that stays off!

    You will reach your goal. Don't compare just live for you! You'll get tthere!

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  13. Hang in there, I'm the slowest loser on the planet, but I can't imagine where I'd be without my band!

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  14. So good to see a new blog from you Rachel!! hang in there and don't beat yourself up too much!!

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  15. I agree with everyone- progress is progress. Plus, look at how much further behind (how much heavier) you would be this year if you hadn't had the band. It is a long process, but you will get there:)

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